Rich People.

Rich people are the worst customers to handle.

Do you agree?

Yes, they are rich because they are capable, successful and/or born stupendously rich. (Goddamn!) And you thought that they would be more enriched, insightful, understanding, has character and less petty. And you thought that they have seen more of society.. but truth be told, they are not good pay masters!

You pay for what you eat is not bullshitting or trying to cheat you. It is the bloody universal law. You ordered a large pizza and you pay for a large pizza. Period!

The same for foreigners too. A string of bad customers this week!

When The Shit Hits The Fan.

I get so caught up with work and making sure things go smoothly for my patients.. But when time passed and the commotion has subsided.. my heart felt a pinch of bitterness. My eyes are welled up and my throat couldn't mutter any words.. Deep down inside I know I feel lonely. I crave for attention. I crave for partnership.

But how do I keep myself from being negative?

I'd really like to believe that my chance will come.. That one day I will be happy again. I wish to be happy and whole again. I really do.

Dear god, please grant me that opportunity soon. I'd like to see a glimmer of hope flash before my eyes. I need to know and be sure that my life do not go wasted slaving away for nothing.

I need to know.. I need to feel again.

[daily disco dose]
Sheryl Crow - Always On Your Side

Love and Anger.

I'm angry.
Angry because you won't let me speak my mind.
Angry because you won't listen to me.
Angry because I am deeply wounded.
Angry because I am hurting.. for years now.

It seems like things are falling apart and nobody cares. Really.. nobody cares at all. Can't you see that things are haywired? Don't you want to change it to the better?

I have all this pend up hurt inside that turns into anger. I just want to make things better for everybody. I'm the youngest but I am carrying the most weight. What happened to the elders?

It hurts. It hurts so much that sometimes I just want to give up.. pack up and go. But then my conscious mind tells me that it's not my values. Struggle beckons. I am trapped within myself.. with my own thoughts I fight my own enemy.

My newly recharged self is wounded and has been scratched silly. I wanna stay positive and happy for myself. I need to be to keep myself sane. It's ridiculous to know that just 2 days before this that I spoke to the therapist and now I am back to square one.

Love left me.

[daily disco dose]
Beyoncé - I Was Here

I wanna drown my sorrows and anger in food. Stuff my face and be fat. Wait. I am already fat. So kill me now.

Curly.

I would like to pay tribute my cute, funny and furry friend - Curly who tragically died one year ago. I would like to dedicate this entry to her because she has been nothing but a joy to have as a pet. I do miss you very much.

She would wait for me to come back and greet me by wagging her tail and jumping with joy. She was a furball of happiness and she never ceases to brightens up my day. I remember that she would bark at the "sampah" truck every morning like it is her enemy. And because she wasn't very tall, she would climb on to the fence and stand on her two feet to see the passers by or even the cars. Curious to know what is happening outside.

Sadly, being curious and wanting to greet her owner were the reasons why she passed away..

She likes to play with water, dry leaves, flies, basketball and her own furry and curly tail. I remember that I like to play chase with her. I would chase her and she would run.. LOL. Sometimes in circles and she likes it. She would go near to the drain to see the water flow down and would be terrified if I poked her from behind. She likes to play with a basketball and she would make funny noises because she thought that the ball was playing tricks on her. I would ask her to sit next to me while I pat her on the head or even a nice body/tummy rub. I would even talk to her during my days of depression and sadness. She may not know it but it soothes me sometimes.

You were an obedient and amazing dog. You will be dearly missed. Be happy and well in heaven dear friend. I will always be thinking of you.

Clueless.

I really didn't have the heart to tell her. She's just so clueless and yet she is there to serve me. She didn't have any idea when it comes to her own products.. much less make up. I wonder how the hell she ended up at the counter and be the promoter.

I know how to read la but when I asked you why is it called 2000 calorie mascara you can't even tell me why but you read me the description of the product instead? Sigh. So clueless. You don't even know the purpose of bronzing powder. Gosh. I need to tell you instead?

Bloody hell. This will be the first and the last time that I will purchase from you. #badcustomerservice

[daily disco dose]
Amy Winehouse - Valerie

Photolog : Piercings

Hi piercings, I have missed you. 

I miss the rebellious days of being an outcast and a standout among the rest. 

The thorn among the roses. 

The dontcarefuckyoubyebye attitude. 

The bravery and courage that I had in my to make the first move and to be firm with my decisions.

Ahhhh.. 

Photolog : Starbucks

Feeling bloated after today's lunch, I hopped on over to the quay side to chill with a tumbler of smooth foamy hot coffee while going online. I am still here as I write. I wrote some lyrics which I was suppose to do a long time ago, chatted with some friends and read a little.. Gonna sign up for a volunteer program.

[daily disco dose]
Sheryl Crow - My Favorite Mistake

Photolog : Vietnamese Food

Hurrah! A friend is making vietnamese food for dinner later. 

So psyched as I've been craving for vietnamese for ages now.

Not to mention I get to chill out with my mates.

Awesome possum! :)

I'm loving this kinda continued happiness all around me.

[daily disco dose]
Augustana - Counting Stars

Photolog : Saturday Loungelicious

Woke up early to go for my medical check up and I hate needles! Gees, haven't had my skin poked with needles for some time now. Did chest X-ray, blood test, urine test, eye test and meet with the not-so-friendly MO. Later met with two of my ex colleagues and went for lunch and took them ronda-ronda in town for a bit. Stopped by to check out The Lifting Buddha phenomenon.

Had a blast because of these mutants. Another epic night. 

Venue wasn't so great but it was the company that matters. 

Pecks on the cheek made me blush like a 5 year old girl.

Get to know some new people, had supper and it was all rad and dandy!

Time to adjust body clock though >_<

[daily disco dose]

Deadmau5 - Raise Your Weapon (Ft. Greta Svabo Bech)

Good day!

• Bought two packets of 5kg rice and donate it to an orphanage in town. 
• Say my thanks and prayers for more good things to come at the temple. 
• Released a pair of birdies for good luck. 

It feels good to be able to do some good to the world!

Hung out with a friend who came back from KK and watched Kung Fu Panda 2 with him. Hilarious movie! My friend then walked me to my car.. such a gentleman la. Later at night, I hung out with a few ex colleagues of mine. We had a good time catching up, talking about our future and bitching about our company and my ex boss.

Though tired but what an awesome day! :D

[daily disco dose]
Friendly Fires - Blue Cassette

Job!

I see the light now! 

Moving towards the light and hopefully I'm moving towards the right direction.
Wish me luck.

It is quite surprising that I went for an interview earlier and they've just called me back and guess what?

I've got the job! On the same day! =D

I can't describe how elated and some sort relieved I am feeling.

Heh, this may sound unorthodox but I can't wait to get back to work!

This calls for a celebration!

[daily disco dose]
Natasha Beddingfield - Pocketful Of Sunshine

Best Friends.

When two of us are together, laughters are bound to embrace our conversations.

Today I wanna dedicate this post to my female best friend. 

I hope today is not the last time of our happy times together.

Although I do have to be prepared to take a step back and watch her embark on a brand new journey with a man of her dreams.. without me.

But I hope that she is happy. That's the most important thing.

It wouldn't hurt if she could still spend time and hang out with me. That would be a bonus for sure.

However, my role is now to take a back seat and enjoy the ride. Show my care for her whenever I am needed in the front seat.

The other one who is in the front seat better treat her good and it wouldn't hurt if I am included in the process of navigation and joy rides once in a while.

But oh well, I am happy for her.

Roses are blooming, wedding bells ringing and the time is near.

[daily disco dose]
Bruno Mars - Count On Me

Growing Up.

Sometimes I think that growing up sucks.

You sort of loose yourself here and there as you grow..

and one day you look back and wonder what happened to you.

Where did the burning passion that you used to have go?

[daily disco dose]

Friendly Fires - Running Away

Photolog : Haircut

Really needs a hair cut!

The hot weather didn't help either.

So to my hairdresser I go and chop chop chop!

Weddings.

Seems like today is a good day for weddings.

Attended my cousin's 20th wedding anniversary today.

Attended another friend's wedding in spirit.

When can I hear my own wedding bells?

Photolog : Productive Day!

Went out the whole day and it has been a productive day!

Got some chores done and the weather is being kind today.

This is just a start.. Welcoming the weekend :)

TGIF indeed!

Photolog : Job

Took up the job. 

Not exactly excited but it pays the rent.

We'll see how it goes from there....

RIP Derek K. Miller

Listening to Joanna Wong's Times Of Your Life while reading Derek Miller's last few posts..

Rain.

Cooling wind sweep over my face and I am feeling contented.

I love the smell of rain. 

For once, I don't mind the gloomy weather for a change.

Thank God for the rain!

[daily disco dose]

Russian Red - The Sun The Trees

Photolog : Komtar

I wish I was as tall as you...

I wish I could be up there seeing the entire world through your eyes.

Filthy Dreams.

Wow. I've just woken up from very bizarre series of dreams.

First, I was at the shop and what I was doing there, I wasn't sure but I know that my black color limited edition Longchamp bag was ruined.

Somehow rather my sister was in my arms. She's in quite a medical condition. She was giving up and was throwing a tantrum but slowly after comforting her, she started to hug me very tightly and sobbing. I had asked her what was her condition and somehow she didn't answer and I just leave it at that. I didn't want her to throw another tantrum.

We had arrived on GH and she somehow fell asleep and then I realized that it was her sleeping problem. The nurse behind the counter was giving us advices on how to sleep and that was when I realized that the whole damn place is horribly dirty. Imagine all the green dirt can be seen on plain sight and the ENTIRE place is covered with nothing but dirt, grease, rotten food and maggots. Literally. From the ceiling to the walls and the floors.

My sister insisted that she wanted to go to the washroom to freshen up and to my dismay, the place is wet and stinky. A little boy with his grandma got cozy with me and I started chasing him. When I finally cornered him in one of the cubicle, it hit me for a few seconds that I really shouldn't continue the chase fearing that he might fall into the toilet hole. I didn't think and straight he fell right into the whole and was screaming and crying his lungs out.

I ran to his granny and told her what happened and we went looking for him outside where we could hear where the crying from. He was covered with poop and smells awful. Grandma consoling him and I kept apologizing to her. My good natured sister then clean the poop from the boy's body. After a while, we left GH. The dirt became so apparent that I was literally flying and trying not to touch the floor as I go from one room to another to find the exit.

I could righteously feel the disgusted hygiene of GH.. and somehow what my friend told me about GH is true.. In my dreams that is.

It got so horrible that I woke up from my dream, phew! This is one dream that I am glad that I woke up from.

Photolog : Nasi Melayu

Been having this nasi melayu cravings for days now.

Some ladies finger(okra) and sambal, half a tofu, an egg, some tempe and curry gravy.

Photolog : Connection

Looking for that link, that connection, that something...

Are we really connected with each other?
Do we light up and shine when we are connected?

Photolog : Pray

In times of answer and a peace of mind, pray..

Dear God, please let me have the courage and strength to stay positive. 

I need to carry on..

Photolog : Garden Room

Where is my very own Garden Room when you need one?

A space for much needed peace and quiet. 

Surrounded by greenery and fragrant flowers. 

My very own space...

Photolog : Sushi Platter

Sushi cravings since months ago.

Japanese food is one of my many comfort food.

Sushisushisushisushisushisushi...

Photolog : Lighthouse

Shed some lights over troubled waters...

Photolog : Last Pedicure

The last pedicure that I had..

It was in April last year.
It has been too long.. Too long since I last pampered myself.

Photolog : Birthday

I've been waiting to feel loved and special... 

Even more so during my birthday.

But years I've been giving myself false expectation. :(

Photolog : Wet Market

Went to the wet market today.

Bought fresh produce and had breakfast.

Simple pleasures.

Photolog : Risotto

The delicious seafood risotto that I had at Bella Marino. Thanks to my buddy!

Photolog : Random Wall

Fresh flowers, rain and loads of love.

Photolog : Sweet Ride

Coming home now. 

Wish I have this waiting for me at home.

Ahhh...

Photolog :Trip Day 2

I should be at a foreign place now sharing this clear blue sky and hot weather. 

Be back soon! :)